Friday, 29 June 2012

Because of them


The moment a child is born, the mother is also born.  She never existed before.  The woman existed, but the mother, never.  A mother is something absolutely new.  ~Rajneesh

I stormed out of the house, ready for confrontation. It was getting dark and very cold. I hadn't stopped to put on shoes. I told a complete stranger exactly what I thought. How his stupidity had scared my children, how his action was an attack on my home. How a simple knock on the door would have been sufficient, that if it happens again police will be called. 

He looked sheepish and muttered an apology. 

Back inside the warmth of my home I ranted for a few moments to Luke. Adrenalin still pumping, hands shaking and cheeks red and hot. Cohen reached out for me and as I held him Isaac wrap his arms around my legs and sighed "Oh, mumma"

Where did that quiet, almost shy girl go? Three years ago I would never have done that. I would have ignored it, maybe called someone else for help.

With motherhood I have found strength in myself that I never thought I possessed. I'm pretty amazed at what I can do. 

Next time I’ll stop to put on my slippers and breathe and I'll remember that because of them I can do anything.
 

2 comments:

  1. Oh my! I hope everything is all right?

    I know exactly what you mean about finding that strenght. When my Cohen was born it was like a whole new part of me was unlocked. A part that could do whatever it took to protect my boy.

    Here's hoping you won't need to tap into it again any time soon. xx

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    1. Everything was ok, just teenage boys only thinking about themselves. I'm hoping I don't either. Peace and quiet from now on please.

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